A Single Woman's Journey To Motherhood


Location: Washington, United States

I began my TTC journey in January 2005. It finally worked with the 5th IUI and along came Eliana! I started trying for a second (T42) a little over a year later, and was thrilled to get pregnant on the second try this time. Jacob soon joined our family! Not sure if I am done at two, but come along for my journey in motherhood. If you stop by, please leave me a short note! I like to know when I have visitors. :)

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Made a trip to Labour and Delivery today...

I have been stuck with this nasty nausea and diarrhea for days now...I felt incredibly awful at school all morning and when I went to the bathroom just before lunch, I had some more explosive diarrhea...accompanied with what seemed a huge gush of something. I was a little worried since I had peed like only maybe 30 minutes before and most of the time I pee these days, it is annoying to feel like you have to pee so much and only a trickle comes out. I went to lunch, bought my lunch and just sat and stared at it. I couldnt bring myself to eat it, I felt so nauseous and dazed and confused (likely my blood sugar was way too low), and concerned that perhaps my water had broken and that I hadn't switched from Lovenox to Heparin yet, etc..Eventually, a coworker (who had preterm labour with her twins) convinced me it would be better to be safe than sorry, and I left school and went to L&D. They tested for amniotic fluid, and it was negative...so I guess I just peed. They kept me for about 3.5 hours hooked up to the baby monitors because Jacob was not behaving with the impromptu NST. There weren't many decels (I think maybe one), but he wasn't being "reactive". Eventually, they let me go but reminded me to keep all appointments.

I have taken Wednesday off of school, but think I will try and go in Thursday for sure since I can't get my long term sub that day (she has a prior subbing committment). I haven't made a decision on Friday yet which was to be my last day anyway...

This nausea is really getting to me...I can handle the diarrhea though I do think I am getting dehydrated as I just cant seem to keep my mouth wet..but it's the nausea that is really getting to me. It all started Friday night, so it has been quite a while now. I got a prescription from the OB Monday night for it, but it made it worse and I actually threw up in bed..ugh. I know that I don't have much right to complain since I avoided the morning sickness at the beginning of both of my pregnancies, but I don't know how to live with this...accompanied by an insane amount of gigantic burps...Don't I just sound so lady-like right now??

And since I am grumbling about everything, let me also add that I have a lovely cold...so my chest muscles are so sore from blowing my nose...I can just imagine how sore I would be if I went into labour anytime soon...

If you made it this far, thanks for listening. :)

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Jacob has received his eviction notice!

First off, thank you to everyone for your kind comments below. Things have thankfully fallen into place for a sub. I never did hear from Human Resources which is just plain strange, but thankfully my department head had the email address for one candidate and eventually gave it to me. (why she couldn't have given it to me on Friday so I wouldnt have had to spend the whole weekend stressing...is beyond me). I met with the candidate today and "hired" her. Honestly, I have no idea how one shoudl really go about doing these things, but I was at the point where I am pretty sure anybody who was "capable" would do. LOL. Hopefully she will end up being a great choice. :)

I still don't know what I am doing for bottles...I guess I have decided to replace them, although I really would rather just use my Avent ones...I was leaning towards the Born Free bottles, but I read somewhere that they had a lot of parts, and that will just annoy me...I likely will end up going with the playtex drop-ins, but I want to check out the evenflo bottles first (the nipples look small from the pictures online and I am not sure if they will be good for a breastfeeding baby...) They would be the cheapest choice, and simple...so that would be great if they worked. :)

And, as my title said, I have an official eviction date for Jacob. If he does not decide to make his appearance beforehand, he will be induced on Mother's day, May 11th. I would rather go into labour on my own, but I am not too hopeful since I didn't with Eliana either...

I had an ultrasound on Monday, and Jacob is ALREADY (as of 35w2d) measuring bigger than Eliana was at birth (38w0d)! yikes! He is estimated at 6lb11oz. The OB predicted today that he would be about 8 pounds at birth...I guess that is a "normal" weight, but compared to Eliana, that just seems so huge!

Once Jacob arrives, it will take a while for me to update, since I will be in the hospital for around 3 days after delivery due to the clotting issues...what a long time. I found it so boring last time, and I suspect i will again...even more so as I will be hooked up to an IV for a few days after delivery...argh.

OK, well, I am exhausted and heading to bed. Have a wonderful night everyone!

Sunday, April 20, 2008


I am having a lot of stress this weekend and just need to vent somewhere.

On Friday, I found out that my student teacher did not pass her exam (again) and so will not be eligible to be my sub. Very sad since it would have been the best situation for everyone..she knows the kids, knows how our classroom works, etc. So now, I am stuck trying to find someone on my own and I dont even begin to know how to do this. On top of that, I had pretty much planned to stop work on May 2nd (two weeks) since I switch to Heparin on April 30th and will need to go in for daily blood tests 4 hours after one of my 3 shots to check dosage...that on top of my daily appoitnments, etc...and I just didnt think I could handle working all day on top of that. So again, this leaves me only 2 weeks to find someone..and the only work day between now and May 2nd that I DONT have an appoitnment immediately after school is April 29th, and I had hoped to spend that day meeting with a sub to go over how things work in my room and where we are at, etc...My department head seems to have no interest AT ALL in helping other than she gave me a list of 5 subs she knows who speak Spanish. No contact information for them, so I coudlnt do any of that this weekend...and then when I said I dont know when I am going to ahve time for this, she just said "I dont have time either". Very, very stressed...I am SO glad that I have pushed my kids all year to be ahead of where I am usually...because it could be that they get no instruction for these last 6 weeks of school...I honestly feel like going to my OB appoitnment this week and asking to be put on leave now, just so I dont have to deal with this...but I cant do that..

Second, I am stressed over bottles. I had planned on using the same bottles I used with Eliana which were highly recommended for breastfeeding moms and ELiana went back and forth between breast and bottle without a single problem...but now they say they are bad and have BPA...I dont know what to do instead and for some reason it seems just overwhelming to decide on a new bottle. Not to mention expensive since I have a ton of bottles! And I never heated her bottles anyway, so not sure how much of a concern it really is...

And third, just very emotional right now. yesterday while organizing clothes in Jacob's room I came across a bag that my mom had left of new clothes she bought and brought down at Spring break "in case someone gave me a shower". I feel so sad that I am not having a shower for this baby...Eliana had 5 showers and was so wanted and loved and anticipated, I feel like it is just not fair for this little guy. And at work last week someone asked me if I was having a shower and it was so awkward...I mean, noone organizes their OWN shower, so how would that happen??

OK, thanks for letting me vent.