A Single Woman's Journey To Motherhood


Location: Washington, United States

I began my TTC journey in January 2005. It finally worked with the 5th IUI and along came Eliana! I started trying for a second (T42) a little over a year later, and was thrilled to get pregnant on the second try this time. Jacob soon joined our family! Not sure if I am done at two, but come along for my journey in motherhood. If you stop by, please leave me a short note! I like to know when I have visitors. :)

Wednesday, May 31, 2006


Originally uploaded by kajohn345.
A semi-smile. The first time I caught one on film! The dress she is wearing is one that I wore as a child. This is the first time we sat her up in the corner of the couch...she loved it!

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Birth Story

I wrote this for one of the lists I am on yesterday when someone asked when was she born. LOL. Here it is, finally.

I went in for my induction at 6:00 pm on Thursday, March 2nd. They began misopropyl (I think that is right) to ripen my cervix, every 3 hours. However, after the second one, they became concerned about Ellie's heart dropping. The nurse came in and asked me if I was feeling my contractions and I said, "what contractions?". I guess I was contracting and her heart rate was dropping with contractions. They stopped the miso and waited till the other OB came in Friday morning (the OB on staff Thursday night was the OB I had "fired"...for just that reason, she didn't seem comfortable with my "high risks" and always wanted to wait and defer to the next specialist).

Throughout the night, about every 15 minutes or so, the nurse would have me move ever so slightly to my right or left side to try and help her heart rate...it was a very long night. My cervix barely changed throughout the night. I started at 1.5cm and in the morning I was 2.5. Finally the new OB came in and started the Pitocin drip. I continued to be contracting regularly every 3 minutes or so (as I had been all night supposedly), but truth be told, I never felt them until about 5:00pm. Every time the OB would pop in to check on me throughout the day, he would say I was obviuosly not ready yet as I was smiling, talking and laughing. My mom thought it quite funny that I was able to sleep through labour and took my picture one time. The OB wanted to break my water and get things going around 5:00. My cervix had only gotten to 3.5. I was really scared about breaking my water and I still wanted to try and wait it out. He agreed to let me. By 8:00, I was 4cm and he insisted that it was time to move things along (I had been on Pitocin for 13 hours by this point, and in induction for 26). He broke my water and inserted the internal monitors. My doula ran to have a quick bite to eat thinking that there would be some time before I really needed her and that it, being my first, could be a long labour.

I had been having almost no pain, and certainly nothing PAINFUL to this point, just uncomfortable. I went to the bathroom, and was in so much pain, I couldn't get out. I called from the bathroom for drugs. My doula made it back, probably about 15 minutes after leaving, and I was given some drug, narcotic I think. It did nothing for the pain, just made the room spin. I was in a lot of pain (I think mostly because it was happening SOO fast and such a drastic change from just 30 minutes before), and asked for that which I had been most scared of: the epidural. The epidural guy was in there probably about 5 minutes later and working on inserting it. He just got the needle in (but not the drip part of it), when I told everyone I had to push.

The nurse told me that wasn't possible and I told her, "I have never had a baby before, but I am quite certain I have to push now". They didn't have time to finish the epidural, gave me a quick bolus, checked my cervix and sure enough, at 8:45, I was now 10 cm and ready to go. At one point, the OB wanted to do an episiotomy, but I told him no. Then, by 10:00, he wanted to use the vacuum as Ellie's heart was dropping very severely (I could hear it just vanish sometimes...I don't know for how long it really was..but to me it seemed like minutes). I was scared of the vacuum, and so I pushed her out. LOL. (no episiotomy in the end..but a tear. I have no experience with recovery from an episiotomy, but recovery from the tear was nothing...I don't regret that decision at all)

I was truly blessed by an easy delivery for the most part. In my opinion, my labour was truly just those 45 minutes of going from 4-10 plus the slightly under 2 hours of pushing. When Eliana was born, they had the NICU staff and the respiratory nurse there in the room with the Ohio bed and everything, but she was fine and never left my room once!

She is such a great baby, so relaxed and content. I am really blessed.
Truly, as her name means, God has answered my prayers. :)

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Our first Mother's Day photo

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Originally uploaded by kajohn345.

Sleeping like a baby

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Originally uploaded by kajohn345.
How can you not love this face?

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

It's working!

When I went home for Easter, I picked up a prescription of domperidone to help build my milk supply..and it's working! I am so thrilled to report that tonight is night #2 where Ellie went to sleep with breastmilk alone...no formula! In fact, she went the entire day today formula free apart from 1.5 ounces I gave her in the late afternoon, and truth be told, we MAY have been able to get by without that...but she was constantly nursing and I was sore and needed a break.

Life is good here. I have finally got my act together and am getting out and doing something every day. The group I go to at the hospital on Mondays has decided to meet once a week to go walking which is great. I was already walking every day, but it is nice to be out with some other moms too.

Of course, all these great developments come just two weeks before I go back to work unfortunately. I hope to continue to stay in touch with these other moms since if any of them are still on leave come July, I can rejoin them. But more importantly, I hope that going back to work will not be the end to the advances we have made in breastfeeding.

I promise to try and get some pics on here soon...