A Single Woman's Journey To Motherhood: April 2007

Thoughts from my head...

This week we were finishing up state testing which meant that I had more planning periods than usual. I took advantage of that one day and popped over to treat myself to a latte at Starbucks. As I was there, I was just watching all these people who apparently don't have jobs (or young kids!) and wondedered..who are these people? How can they spend their day going to the mall, to the coffee shop, to the movies, etc during the daytime?

This also got me remembering being on maternity leave last year and the freedom to head out during the day to run errands, go to the mommy movies, attend mom and me classes, etc. Oh, I really wish I could be a stay at home mom.

This then brought me to wishing I could find that husband who would make it possible for me to be a stay at home mom...and so that vicious seed of sadness of being single was once again planted in my brain.

I have also been obsessed with trying for my second child this week. I am sure it was spurred on by two ill-fated pregnancies (my babysitter and my friend). I made an appointment with the fertility clinic for May 8th to have my consultation so that when I am ready I can hopefully just begin. I still have not had my period (almost two years now what with pregnancy and breastfeeding!). It just dawned on me last night that maybe the domperidone was to blame. I continue to breastfeed at night, but I think I may be ready to stop the domperidone and let things take their course. I will absolutely miss breastfeeding if that brings an end to it, but I can feel good that I made it 13.5 months...

Eliana continues to practice her walking...I just love watching her excitement when she walks to and subsequently always falls into me. :) She is just such a joy in my life, I couldn't imagine life without her...I am so glad that I went down this difficult path, and know that I am meant to have more than one child.

Just some random thoughts from my head as Eliana naps this morning...

Walking!

Yep, that is right, Eliana has finally ventured into the world of the walkers. She has cruising down pat and loves to walk around holding onto things and pushing things, but in the past week she has really been adventurous and has started to walk on her own! The most I have seen is maybe 5 steps at a time, but I think the problem is that she is programmed to fall into a big hug at the end! LOL. :) I just love watching her walk, can't wait to catch it on film.

My little baby is certainly growing up.